The Media
Living amoungst a plethera of people concerned about their apperance I've constantly heared things like, "brittney spears is so skinny", "whats with all these supermodels on tv, no one actually looks like that" and the clentch, "it makes me feel inadiquite".
Well here's where my story comes in. I was seeing a girl a few months back, and at the time I'd been seeing her for at least 3 or 4 months. It was pretty common for me to roll over to her house and just hang out- you know, typical shit. Well this particular girl, as cool as she may be, has a serious obsession with TV/ movies/ and all things that display themselves on her big screen. Amoung the endless sea of faces that she loves is Mark Wahlberg, who's apparently at the upper tier of men she's crazy about. Well I can't remember what we were watching, I'm not much for TV, I never came over to watch tv, even if thats what it seemed like- I was there for her. Well whatever it was we were watching there was a commercial break, and during it there was one dealing, for some reason I can't even hope to recall, exclusivly with mark Wahlberg. Now I dont have a problem with the fact that mark Wahlberg's body makes me look like shit. He earned it, its his and I respect him for that. What bothered me though was that, even though she was sitting leaning against me on her couch, that I had sincerely tryed for this chick for months, when Wahlberg shows up on screen it was like I wasn't even there. Now whats so attractive about famous people? Their wealth, well I dont think bill gates wets many panties. The fact that their faces are all over newspapers and tv, well so is the president, and I'd put money on gates in a numbers game over bush. So lets agree, since you really dont have a choice, that its looks. Now heres the thing, I never thought of myself as a terribly unfit person, here's me.
And here's mark...
Obviously theres a a difference, but I'm cool with that. I could even stand next to the guy and not feel bad about myself- most of the time I'm not worried about how I look. What bothers me is that if she had a chance to I could guarantee she'd be out of my arms in his bed in a heart beat- and that's more than enough to make me feel my lacking.
But its not the Mark Wahlbergs and the Brittney Spears that make us feel inadiquite, because we are inadiquite, and we know it. But instead its the people in our own lives that take us from knowing what we are and dealing with it, to feeling what we arn't, and that makes us feel, quite simply, like shit.
Well here's where my story comes in. I was seeing a girl a few months back, and at the time I'd been seeing her for at least 3 or 4 months. It was pretty common for me to roll over to her house and just hang out- you know, typical shit. Well this particular girl, as cool as she may be, has a serious obsession with TV/ movies/ and all things that display themselves on her big screen. Amoung the endless sea of faces that she loves is Mark Wahlberg, who's apparently at the upper tier of men she's crazy about. Well I can't remember what we were watching, I'm not much for TV, I never came over to watch tv, even if thats what it seemed like- I was there for her. Well whatever it was we were watching there was a commercial break, and during it there was one dealing, for some reason I can't even hope to recall, exclusivly with mark Wahlberg. Now I dont have a problem with the fact that mark Wahlberg's body makes me look like shit. He earned it, its his and I respect him for that. What bothered me though was that, even though she was sitting leaning against me on her couch, that I had sincerely tryed for this chick for months, when Wahlberg shows up on screen it was like I wasn't even there. Now whats so attractive about famous people? Their wealth, well I dont think bill gates wets many panties. The fact that their faces are all over newspapers and tv, well so is the president, and I'd put money on gates in a numbers game over bush. So lets agree, since you really dont have a choice, that its looks. Now heres the thing, I never thought of myself as a terribly unfit person, here's me.
And here's mark...
Obviously theres a a difference, but I'm cool with that. I could even stand next to the guy and not feel bad about myself- most of the time I'm not worried about how I look. What bothers me is that if she had a chance to I could guarantee she'd be out of my arms in his bed in a heart beat- and that's more than enough to make me feel my lacking.
But its not the Mark Wahlbergs and the Brittney Spears that make us feel inadiquite, because we are inadiquite, and we know it. But instead its the people in our own lives that take us from knowing what we are and dealing with it, to feeling what we arn't, and that makes us feel, quite simply, like shit.
posted by Shadowteer at 3:24 AM
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